Sunday, June 29, 2014
Change Me Lord (So, That's Why I'm Struggling..)
Well, it's been a long time since I posted on this blog. I purchased a domain last year and tried that for a year. I decided not to pay for it this year. So, I thought I would blog here from time to time, especially when I have something to share that God is teaching me.
I've had a rough month. Why? Two things, first we signed up both of our children to play t-ball and softball this summer. Second, I started selling Nerium in May. Both good things, but also new to us things. I found during this past month that I was getting aggravated at people often and it revolved around two things - ball games and Nerium. Go figure! And then the Lord reminded me that I'm always asking Him to change me. It's not a specific prayer of mine, but in general I ask God to change me to be who He has called me to be. So, my flesh was frustrated.
I'm naturally emotional and often that involves getting mad. So, when I get hurt, my temper flares. Throughout the past month, I found myself hurt when family didn't attend the children's ball games as often as I thought they should. I also got my feelings hurt when people didn't purchase the Nerium products when I really thought they would. Silly? Maybe, but this is real life. We are supposed to treat others as we want to be treated. Many of us gossip and get mad and don't even think about what we are doing. I was getting so upset that it was obvious I was needing help from the Lord. Regardless of what I thought the others should do, I have to receive my worth from God. It doesn't matter if I feel like others are rejecting me. God is not. He wants to be my everything. If I received everything I needed from other people, I probably wouldn't run to God.
That's what it boiled down to. I was feeling rejected when people didn't come to the games and when they didn't purchase the Nerium. People will reject us. That's the fallen world we live in. BUT God does not. We have to stand firm against Satan. Reject the thoughts that God does not care about you. Know that He does! Does it hurt to be rejected? YES! But it doesn't matter. God is big enough to heal the hurt!!